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As i feel myself going through some serious mental changes, sometimes i lose focus on things around me. Personally, due to all the recent changes in my personal life, i have been forced to re-evaluate my outlook on life itself. I am realizing a lot of things about myself and about how i tend to conform my personal desires to the desires of others around me. Daily i can feel myself finding more and more of my true self and less and less of what people expect me to be. And as i continue this trek to self completion, i thank God for friends who are understanding enough to offer their helpful words but not stand in my way. A close friend of mine told me this tonight and i am very thankful:
"If you truly want to know who you really are, seek to find out who HE really is... then HE can show you who you really are..." -Quite possibly the most truthful words i have heard in a long time.

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I feel like a million bucks that just went through a shredder... lol. Jenny (one of my bestest friends in all the universe) and i went running tonight for the first time in forever! (actually it has been since we last ran around the campus of ETBU) and i must say it made such a difference. I feel so good! But i feel so worn out too... We are going to try to start running and swimming everyday. I am gettin my pale butt back in shape!
I was listening to both Matchbox Twenty albums tonight on the way back from Ruston and i must say that they are the ultimate "relationship" albums ever to be released. Rob Thomas has a way of capturing everything i am feeling right now. Almost every song on both Cd's seriously convery my emotions... especially songs like "Leave" and "If you're gone" off of Mad Season. Almost the entire first album is easy to relate to as well... i love how universal music is....

://4.22.2001

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Well I was attempting to download some really cool new music tonight when i got the first taste of these ridiculous filters that Napster has been forced to install. IT REALLY IS BECOMING A PAIN IN THE BUTT TO USE NAPSTER. But i guess that is the point...It amazes me how far this silly Napster thing has really gone. I was attempting to look up some old Radiohead stuff and it literally took me 10 tries to find "Creep"and "fake plastic trees". It involves this new skill of purposely mispelling words so that you can actually find them...lol Isn't piracy fun kids... Also, if you haven't checked it out yet, the new single from Staind is super tight... "It's been awhile" is a very deep song and is really well written. I enjoy their blend of light-weight hardcore metal mixed with the melodic vocalizations of frontman aaron lewis... it is a tight sound and worth a listen.

://4.20.2001

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I wrote something this morning and i think i will share it with you guys. It kind of fits into the new direction i am going with my artwork/poetry thing. I am going to add a section to thew image gallery soon that will be for all these desktop art/poems i am doing... feel free to use any of them as a desktop.
This one is called open door. Click on the name or HERE to view it.

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GIG DAY ! GIG DAY GIG DAY! GIG DAY! GIG DAY! GIG DAY!
Well folks, today we play for the Wesley Foundation at Louisisana Tech University... The show starts at 7:45pm and will go till whenever. Since it is Gig Day i thought i would post some pics of the band... ain'y thay purdy!!! lol Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers tonight as we take the opportunity to not be artists or wanna-be rock stars... just 3 guys that want to share their souls through music... ;)

://4.19.2001

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I just completed the artwork for the poem "fallen"... i also have a desktop version of the poem which is also my current desktop... click on the desktop link on the bottom left (below the menu) to get that copy or just click HERE to view the new poem.

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A very wise person once said "LOVE IS BLIND". I believe this saying is like a coin, it has two faces and both are worth something... On one side you have a love that overlooks all faults and errors and forgives and forgets... it accepts no substitutes and loves unconditionally... but the flip side of this coin means that you become oblivious/blind to the to certain other things around you... like the pain of loving someone who does not love you and not seeing the fact that the one you love is hurting you... So all of you can just keep right on shining up that coin if you want to... i am afraid that it is getting time to cash mine in...

://4.17.2001

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~WHERE IN THE WORLD IS MIKE????????? -well here i am... i know i have been away for a while and i am sorry about the lack of updates... this is temporary and can't be helped...
My life is in the process of taking some new changes and turns... and hopefully all of them will end up with great results... Change is never welcomed when it comes to our personal lives but sometimes all we really need is a change. A good friend once told me "The only thing constant in life is change." And so I accpet this for what it is... something that must happen... and i know that if i have the strength to endure it, i will learn how to deal with anything...

://4.12.2001

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I am working on some new wallpapers for any of you that may want to use them... i created the one i have now and have about 4 more in the works... i will let you guys now when they aredone.. :)

://4.11.2001

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My friend Daniel Langston went to school with me and has played in some of the bands i played in over the years... well, Daniel finally made it!... he is in this new Christian Band and is moving to Nashville... Congrats Daniel! Click on the images above to view their promo pic. (Daniel is on the far right)

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I added a "new section" to the poems area... this is where i will display my newer material... check it out when you can...

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Sometimes i believe latin is the only language that can truly express my heart...
"omnia mutantur nos et mutamur in illis" - all things change, and we change with them

"sadness is simply a symptom of a greater sickness"

://4.10.2001

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Life is an everlasting enigma to me... i must confess that i have little understanding of this often overwhelming force we call emotion... How can one love so much and yet hurt so deeply at the same time... How can the soul weep in joy and flow rivers of pain all at once... how can i taste the fruit of completion and know the utter emptiness of being lonely. seperation from the one i love reminds me of a perfect day when i was 8 years old. The sun was a brilliant shade of white and the wind danced across the outstretched arms of the wild green trees... yet i was locked away in my room, completely unable to breathe that refreshing air and unable to bask in the infinite glow of the sun... i could only behold it through my window and dream... i pray the sun does not forget me...

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://4.06.2001

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Your not so lovely insomniac reporting in... Updates Galore:
-added new pictures to the Friends and Family Gallery
-added two short stories, Deathand How,that i wrote in college to the Poems section.
-added the lyrics to the newest songs i have written: Madison Avenue, Let Go, Typical Boy, Re-main, Autumn, and Forwardsliding.
I am actually working on a page right now for all the new things so that they are easy to find... I have practice today so please be in prayer... (that sounds worse than it is... lol) IT IS GOING TO ROCK TONIGHT!

://4.05.2001

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Ok, I promise that this ADD thing gets so old sometimes... About 6 hours ago i set out to publish the lyrics to some of our new songs and i am no where near done... especially since certain parties (who will remain nameless) were so good at ditracting me. Actaully I am good at distracting myself. I promise tommorow that i will have them up.

://4.03.2001

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DMB:THE LILLYWHITE SESSIONS. OK, If you haven't heard about this yet then you are 2 steps behind. The mysterious Lillywhite Sessions that Dave Matthews did have surfaced and are all over Napster somehow. As the story goes, Dave Matthews and the boys hit the studio last year to record a follow-up album to the #1 Album "Before these Crowded Streets...". Dave Matthews himself , despite all his fame and fortune, was seriously depressed and drinking a lot. Some events in his life had occured that left him in shambles as a person and at what he described as "the lowest point of his life". He locked himself away in this incredible underground studio they have under "the warehouse" and wrote 12 songs over several months. He described it as "the darkest and most sad part of himself aching to be free". When it was all said and done Dave literally took all 12 very personal and very intimate tracks and locked them away somewhere never to be released. They were so dark and personal i guess he felt like they were for no one else's ears. Well, somehow, someone got a hold of the unmastered copies of all 12 tracks and put them on Napster... It has been given the name "The Lillywhite Sessions" since Steve Lillywhite was the producer working on the album. While i personally don't condone taking an artists personal work and exploiting it with out permission, i will say this: this is possibly some of Dave's most intimate work and definately darkest. I listened to the whole album in it's entirety after Steven burned me a copy of his and by the time I was done, I was in another world. Despite the fact that he was drunk on some of the songs and the band itself doesnt seem to mesh incredibly, i love the album. Bartender is by far my favorite song. "Bartender Please, fill my glass for me, with the wine you gave Jesus that set him free, after three days in the ground..."

://4.02.2001

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Welcome to Nolonger v2.0!!! I think this design works a little bit better and it is a lot easier to maintain. :) Please feel free to e-mail or IM me with any questions or comments on the new look. All the other sections will be getting a facelift as well, with the exception of the poetry section. (sorry guys but i love that layout) Please be patient as i finish this transition over the next few days... :::
On a different note, things with the band are moving sweeter than ever. We have more than 13 songs worth of material and it doesnt seem to be slowing down. (tis is the best stuff i have ever been lucky enough to take part in.)
Our latest song was a true gift from God in more ways than one... It is called "Madison Ave." and is stunning to listen to. Thank God for his beautiful gifts. I will have the lyrics to "Madison Ave." and all the other new songs as well as some of my latest poetic ramblings tommorow. sleepy time for me~

://3.29.2001

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IMAGES IMAGES IMAGES GALORE! I am about 1/5 of the way done with the image gallery. The first two or three sections should be up by the time i go to bed. I havent sorted all of these images out and I am not sure how I will end up organizing them... but for now they are there!

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QUOTE OF THE WEEK: "It is ridiculous claiming that video games influence children. For instance, if Pacman affected kids born in the eighties, we should by now have a bunch of teenagers who run around in darkened rooms and eat pills while listening to monotonous electronic music."

just when i think those anit-video game guys have no legs to stand on,i start to remember every rave i have ever been to...

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